Sometimes…

Sometimes I feel they’ve all gone
I inwardly cringe and hoping I’ve lost it all
And the world is far ahead
I’m benumbed and sad at my pace
Sometimes I feel fear

Sometimes I’m torn
between the voice in my head and whispers from my heart
I’m pushed far beyond pain to feel I’ve failed
And I’m irrelevant
Sometimes I wail

Sometimes I feel the time is gone
Gone so far I won’t catch up
I feel like a colossal failure
Just because it’s not happening as fast as I want
Sometimes I’m confused

Sometimes I’m blind
Unable to see the beauty of the day
Focusing only on the looming dark cloud
Buried in the womb of the morning
Sometimes I miss the blessings

Sometimes I weigh wrongly
Considering only the height I’ve attained
Despising the depth I rose from
How stupid?!
Sometimes I don’t think

Sometimes I judge
Subtly comparing my achievements to theirs
Inwardly nursing my doom
While strangling my happiness
Sometimes I’m my problem

Sometimes I put a weight on my self
Such none has put on me
Demanding from me what’s not in me
With the view to prove to who isn’t interested in me
Sometimes I’m dumb

Tonight I’ll sleep
Reminding me of how far I’ve come
Thinking of the course I’m called to serve
So by morning, I can wake to the brighter side of life
Sometimes I need the LIGHT